Making cookies.

We spent the evening together last night and dad made ritz peanut butter and chocolate cookies, I've never had them before and they are delicious! The kids had so much fun sprinkling them and especially eating them all up! We love when we have everyone together and get to have some fun family time. ♥

                                                         Can you tell them LOVED them?!

My honey buns.

 I love this boy. He is so incredible. I couldn't have found anyone more perfect for me or better for me. He makes me so very happy, everyday with him is such a blessing. We have a wonderful family and life together, something we never try to forget or take for granted. We've been through hell and back in the last year and sticking it out and working together we finally made it where we are now: our own little piece of heaven on earth. I am so grateful to him and for him and everything he has brought into my life. Our days get busy between house hold chores, work, running the kids around, and the family life and its not everyday i get time to show him how crazy i am about him. how he still gives me butterflies and makes me feel flirty. how deeply and genuinely in love with his heart and his soul i am. how I can't help but smile when he's laughing. how i think hes an amazing father. how I cant be without him.

He is my eternal love.

I LOVE MY HONEY BUNS!

* I realize the picture of us isn't fantastic since I'd been flying all day and he'd been pacing back and forth in the Airport for the late arrival of my re-booked flight since i missed mine to Tennessee out of Chicago.. but this is our first picture together since I moved here and it means the world to me.

Then and Now.

                                  Then.                                        Now.

I was looking through our pictures and I saw both of these and just had to sit and smile at how me and Chad haven't changed at all after everything we've been through this last year. We are still our fun, crazy, lovey, head over heels for each other selves. This will never change..
We will ALWAYS be US.

Our Weekend with Connor.

.Went to IHOP for breakfast/lunch and ate off of each others plates the whole time.
.Connor opened my door for me.
.We sang to the radio/cd all the way to Knoxville.. like usual.
.We walked around and just spent time together.
.Then proceeded to stuff ourselves with pizza at Mr. Gatti's.
.We went and watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 (but mostly we just watched Connor watching it.)
.Took pictures by Connors favorite chipmunk Alvin.
.We stopped for bathroom breaks about 14 times the entire time between me and Connor. haha.
.We had a blast.

Quick Connor Story:
We we're driving in the car and Connor asked us when we could go Go-Karting and Chad told him we'd go when it warmed up, he said but it is warm enough. I looked at him and said but its still winter and the baby might get soo cold! He looked back at me and said "We'll then you just need to get the baby a baby coat and reach into your belly and put it on it so it will stay warm then we could go Go-Karting!"
Then
Today when he had his hand on my belly feeling the baby kick he said "maybe since the baby kicks so much it means you need to go to the doctor today and get it out!" He really wants his little bother or sister here NOW!

                                          

Tennessee snow.

As little snow as their was the kids still had a blast bundling up and playing around in it. Daddy went out to play and ended up getting hit by a few snowballs from our little ones. One day I'll have to take them all to utah and show the kids and Chad what a REAL winter is like!

Kierstin and Daddy.

As I Sit Here Thinking Tonight...

  Life hasn't turned the way I thought it would at all. It seems like only yesterday that I was just a kid dreaming about tomorrow. Now here I am, it's tomorrow. I'm thirty-six years old hoping that tomorrow doesn't get here too fast. I've learned the hard way that tomorrow isn't promised to any of us. In October I had to part with someone that I love very much. My twin brother Pat. We were so different yet so alike in many ways. We spoke our own language that only we understood. We finished each others thoughts and sentences. The pain of losing him is an open wound that may never close. As I fight back tears I can't help but think about the last day that we spent together. We had not spent a whole day together in a long time. That was a great day. His passing was the hardest thing that I've ever gone through. In some ways I'm still going throught it but I can always remember back to that day and know that we laughed and smiled together one last time.

Sherina...

  Sherina is such a wonderful blessing to me. I know that I will never deserve her but I thank GOD every day for her. She has turned me into a believer again and reminded me that dreams do come true.She came into my life at a time when I had given up... I had given up on forever. She has shown me how to love. Some people think that we shouldn't be together,( I am eighteen years older than her ya know), but we don't pay them or their opinions any mind at all.I think that we compliment each other very well. We share a love, a trust, an understanding, a friendship, and a firey romance that some people may never have. If I weren't us, I'd be so jealous of us!! I love her endlessly. She is my Lil' Bit. She is my eternal love.

  Yeah, life hasn't turned out the way I thought it would at all... It's turned out so much better!!

My little girls.

Oh the Memories. Playing dress up. Going to the park. Eating yogurt with Ellie. Fallowing Addie around to see what sort of craziness shes getting into. Being Ellies cookie monster. Singing Macie to sleep in my arms. Getting the most amazing loves and snuggles. Going to get doughnuts and chocolate milk. Bath time. The little things they did to make me smile every moment i was with them. I cant think about them without out coming to tears (as I am now.) These girls are such a big part of my heart. I love them so much. I miss their beautiful faces. I miss the sound of their laugh. I miss the way Ellie and Addie say my name. I miss Macies cheesy grins. I miss watching Addie go from the tantrum thrower to the sweetest thing ever being so adorable the whole way through. I miss sitting down with Ellie while she tells me about her beautiful dreams of rainbows and unicorns. Ellie, Addie, Macie you have always been and will FOREVER be my girls.

                        

All pictures are stolen from awesome Danicas blog. Thanks love. :)

Ellie

Addie

Macie

us.

I love this boy. A lot.

Baby Callahan.

We're sixteen weeks pregnant!
Our little pumpkin seed isn't so small anymore, it seems like everyday my belly just keeps on getting bigger and BIGGER. Although there are a lot of negatives like drowsiness, a huge appetite, not sleeping comfortably, having to pee all the dang time.. their is one positive that outweighs them all: OUR BABY. We couldn't be more excited for our little blessing to come into our family. As if Chad wasn't protective enough of me before then he definitly is now, and i LOVE it. He is such a cute daddy to all of our little rascals. He sits and talks to our baby, rubs my belly (especially when its hurting), and gives it lots of loves and kisses. I sing to the baby a lot lately and have decided that one of the his/her favorite songs is "Rubber Ducky" which is great since EVERYTHING Grandpa and Grandma Stewart have gotten it so far is all DUCKY. It already has a lot of snuggly little ducky pajamas. We LOVE our little baby and the whole family is excited for it to come. The other day we asked Connor what he wanted to do that day and he replied "I want to go to the doctors today and get the baby out so we can play with it."  We have one awesome family!

Daddy giving our baby kisses. ♥

The beautiful blanket my moms making for the baby.

(shes an amazing grandma.)

Me as a little baby. (I really  hope the babe gets my chin dimple! haha)

The babys ducky pajamas and bath towel.