payton pictures.

Just Curious..

I wrote this little short story tonight and i would like to know what everyone's opinions on it are. Its a bit sad but its what came out when i decided to write for the first time in a long times. enjoy. :)

                  Her foot hit the cracked concrete and she knew that this would be the hardest day of her life. She numbly closed the car door behind her and walked through the pouring rain, not a thought in mind for her body was taking every ounce of anything it had just to keep on going, to keep up the courage it would take to walk through those two metal doors. The doors that once seemed like nothing but doors now felt like prison bars. She knew even when she walked out of them her soul, her hope, and her happiness would be forever locked inside this hospital. The rain was in a downpour as was her life. She was about to lose the one solid rock she had to stand on, her rhythm of life, her superman. He had been in a coma for 4 months and 5 days.. it wasn’t until the second month that she stopped counting by the minutes. Now more than ever she missed the little things about him, the little everyday things that the rest of the world was carrying on taking for granted. Like the way he belted out songs while he showered, or how he spent hours working on puzzles because he never left anything unfinished. She was losing her superman, but today she had had to pull it together, change out of his t shirts and do the right thing for him; today she had to be his superwoman.  She sat down hand in hand with the love of her life for the last time, first it was a teardrop then another and then it rained. Her body shook, her lungs gasped, her heart tore itself open, and the little light in her soul finally gave up. She wasn’t thinking about the scene she was making or even the fact that there were other people in the hospital, nothing mattered to her now. Nothing but the last few moments she had with her husband. The doctors came in and the words they spoke were muffled and dark. They went over the procedure with her and they started what was to be the death of the man she loved. She thought about slipping out, about leaving and finding herself in the bottom the bottle of wine they were saving for their 5^th anniversary. But she stayed. She laid her mascara smeared face next to his and curled up next to him the way they always had when it was time to go to bed. Placing her hand over his heart she felt alive for just a moment, she squeezed her eyes shut and pictured them in their bed for if they were just in bed then he was just sleeping and he would eventually wake up. She awoke back to reality and she kissed his lips, she kissed his lips and told him how proud she was of him for being such a warrior and fighting for so hard for so long. She told him she loved him. They pulled him of his life support and the beating of his heart slowly but surely stopped. For a split second as she felt his heart stop and his chest fall she felt that she may truly die then too. He was gone. She stepped back out into the rain and into a world that was now dark and unfamiliar.  

Baptisms.

John Michael and Kierstin got baptized yesterday! It was such an awesome experience to see our kids accept and make that promise to god openly and wholeheartedly. They have grown up knowing about god but not really steadily learning about him and his teachings, when Chad and I started going to church we made it just as much about the kids as we did ourselves. All of them have grasped on to the teachings and have been amazing about praying and being excited about church. We are really so blessed to have kids with such big pure hearts! Its amazing how you learn things about who they are and what is in their hearts when they pray, its one of my favorite things ever. I can't even start to explain how incredible it was to watch Chad Baptize our kids as members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Having a husband that holds and is worthy of the Priesthood has been an incredible things. Being a member of the church and committing himself to something greater has made such a huge difference in him which in turn has made a huge difference in all of us. I couldn't be prouder of him then i am now, he is the father, the example and the leader that we all need and deserve. Our life 's may not be perfect and we may not have all of the riches of the world, but we have the gospel and we have our family and that my friends is all anyone really needs to be truly rich and truly joyful.

Thankful.

Today i am thankful for the past 2 years of my life. I have got to know and love all four of my kids over the last two years. Even though some days i may take for granted the time i get with them, i often catch my self staring in amazement and glowing inside at each of their own little quirks and personalities. John Michael has such a soft loving heart, he wants to live in our arms and cuddled up on our laps. I love that he still runs around outside with capes on. I love how hes the perfect mix of a young man and a little boy. He has such a huge bright imagination, he can write a story that makes you think and day dream all at the same. I love this kid so much, I want him to stay my little man forever. Kierstin, this girl is so much fun. She is silly and profound, she is innocent yet tough. She lives with her head in the clouds but her heart in the heavens. I love her. I love the way that shes not afraid to laugh out loud when no one else is. I will always cherish the girl time we get together painting nails and doing hair. She is a bright light that can touch your heart with the simplest things. Connor is such a boys boy, he likes to play hard and get dirt. But hes got just as much compassion and softness in him. One minute he wants to wrestle with me and the next hes asking to help me cook. He wants to be just like his daddy. I love that he has his heart in the right place, i love that he always makes sure we pray, and i love how honest and thankful he is in those prayers. When i met these kids I had no idea that they would completely capture my heart and soul. They are mine and I am there's. It may be silly, but my heart still smiles every time i hear "mommy" come out of their little mouths. Everyday they teach me what it is to be a mom. And thats something i will never take for granted. God has given my 5 amazing people to love and take care of. Five people to shape and change my life. Earthly and eternally. Payton Emma, this girl makes my heart sing each and everyday. Watching her grow into who she is amazing, she has such a sweet but powerful personality. I want her to live in a fairy tale forever. I never want her to learn the bad of the world. This little baby girl keeps us all laughing or ahhhing all day long. She is so affection, especially with her brothers and sister. She will walk over to them and curl up next to them and just lay there, whether they are playing video games or trying to get to sleep. She gives the biggest open mouth kisses and the littlest little Eskimo kisses. I am addicted to this little girl. My family is the perfect fit for me. I love our little Callahan Crew.

Blessings.

WOW! so much has happened lately it has been so happy but hectic! So no fancy photo editing or titles on these just a pack of pictures to catch you all up on the Callahan life! We got married and he got baptized, it was an incredibly emotional blessed week we had.